I don't like school.
Yea, that sounds awful. But really. I don't like school. I don't know if there was ever a time that I did. It wasn't so bad when I didn't have to study. Tests were easy, homework was easy, I knew how to write a proper paper. But now. Wow. I hate it. It sucks. Plus school over here is supposed to be independent learning. WHY am I paying to teach myself? I spend so little time in the classroom and have so little classwork that I feel like I have done absolutely nothing. Which is pretty accurate. And because I have done absolutely nothing, I can't even sit down to work on the homework assignment I have been doing little pieces of for over a week now. I'm not even supposed to be writing this. I am supposed to be putting together a PowerPoint and writing a report to go with it to send to the guys in my group so we can put all of our stuff together and present it on Monday. But you know what I have done so far? Three slides that are all only half finished, a reference slide, the title slide, and I put our question on the top of a sod document to start the report. I. SUCK. Don't worry, I will get it done and sent to my group. But god. I just can't do it. What have I done today? Nothing that needed to be done. I got up (woke up at 11, got up at like 1), showered, did my laundry, wrote half of a slide, watched the office, ate some candy canes, folded my clothes, made dinner, organized my cabinets, moved things around on my shelves, watched more of the office, and I just barely deep cleaned my bathroom. I got down on my hands and knees and I washed the floor. That is how much I don't want to do my homework. I hate cleaning. But I hate homework that much more.
I think part of my problem with school is the fact that my intelligence is based off of test grades and compared to thousands and thousands of other students. At the U its a little better because you can take classes that aren't in your major. But here you can't and you have to take the same classes all year round. Plus I am only in school 8 hours every week, less this week because I had a class cancelled. And WHAT is the deal with academic writing? IT. IS. THE. WORST. You have to cite everything (which I get, people deserve their credit) but if you are writing a paper or something about the same topic and are constantly citing one person, what is the point??
Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for my education and all of my opportunities, I just wish there was a different way I could do it. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life (and for all of you that do, you suck (not really, I'm just jealous)). A couple weeks ago I was sure that I was going to change my major to Anthropology when I got home, because that is a lot more interesting to me than business. But now I am back to thinking that I want to do something with anatomy. But I don't really want to do premed but there is really no other way to go.. Do you see my problem? I am interested in a lot of things, but I don't know what to do. I just know that I don't want to do business. No way. It sucks. So much. It's so boring. I have learned more working for my dad than I have in school. If you have any advice, please help me.
I have been feeling pretty down and confused about this whole school and major thing. But I have also been feeling pretty crappy anyway, too. I'm exhausted all the time, I seem to be getting larger even though I am eating 100000 times better than I was last semester and I am actually sticking to my work outs. I feel so run down and sluggish and blah all the time. And I miss home. I miss being able to go to ONE store and get everything I need, I hate having to go to two or three stores just to get stuff. I miss being able to go to a store after 6pm (unless it's Thursday, then you can shop until 8pm, it's kind of ridiculous). I miss American food. Even the stuff they have here tastes different (pepperoni pizza tastes completely different here, it was very sad and surprising when it came from Papa Johns). I miss knowing what people are talking about and not saying the wrong words (I CAN'T get myself to say trousers instead of pants. I hate the word trousers. Pants are underwear by the way). I miss spelling things with Zs instead of Ss and I miss leaving out the Us. I miss having clean counters and not having to see rotting food in dishes (seriously, some have mold). Ugh.
Well. That rant-ish thing wasted about an hour. I guess I'll go try to do my homework again. I am going to try to write more. Maybe every day or every other day. I put up a poll but no one has voted. I don't think anyone has really even looked at my new site. That makes me kinda sad. But oh well. I am going to make this more for me to look back on, I guess.
Love you guys.
I think part of my problem with school is the fact that my intelligence is based off of test grades and compared to thousands and thousands of other students. At the U its a little better because you can take classes that aren't in your major. But here you can't and you have to take the same classes all year round. Plus I am only in school 8 hours every week, less this week because I had a class cancelled. And WHAT is the deal with academic writing? IT. IS. THE. WORST. You have to cite everything (which I get, people deserve their credit) but if you are writing a paper or something about the same topic and are constantly citing one person, what is the point??
Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for my education and all of my opportunities, I just wish there was a different way I could do it. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life (and for all of you that do, you suck (not really, I'm just jealous)). A couple weeks ago I was sure that I was going to change my major to Anthropology when I got home, because that is a lot more interesting to me than business. But now I am back to thinking that I want to do something with anatomy. But I don't really want to do premed but there is really no other way to go.. Do you see my problem? I am interested in a lot of things, but I don't know what to do. I just know that I don't want to do business. No way. It sucks. So much. It's so boring. I have learned more working for my dad than I have in school. If you have any advice, please help me.
I have been feeling pretty down and confused about this whole school and major thing. But I have also been feeling pretty crappy anyway, too. I'm exhausted all the time, I seem to be getting larger even though I am eating 100000 times better than I was last semester and I am actually sticking to my work outs. I feel so run down and sluggish and blah all the time. And I miss home. I miss being able to go to ONE store and get everything I need, I hate having to go to two or three stores just to get stuff. I miss being able to go to a store after 6pm (unless it's Thursday, then you can shop until 8pm, it's kind of ridiculous). I miss American food. Even the stuff they have here tastes different (pepperoni pizza tastes completely different here, it was very sad and surprising when it came from Papa Johns). I miss knowing what people are talking about and not saying the wrong words (I CAN'T get myself to say trousers instead of pants. I hate the word trousers. Pants are underwear by the way). I miss spelling things with Zs instead of Ss and I miss leaving out the Us. I miss having clean counters and not having to see rotting food in dishes (seriously, some have mold). Ugh.
Well. That rant-ish thing wasted about an hour. I guess I'll go try to do my homework again. I am going to try to write more. Maybe every day or every other day. I put up a poll but no one has voted. I don't think anyone has really even looked at my new site. That makes me kinda sad. But oh well. I am going to make this more for me to look back on, I guess.
Love you guys.
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