There are good days and there are bad days...

I have kinda failed at writing on here more often. I have thought of different things to write about, but then there is no time. So since I've already ruled out homework completely tonight, I decided that today was the day to write.

Last year (which it is still weird that 2014 is LAST year), I, unfortunately, had more bad days than good, the good days were few and far between. Well, all good days were few and far between, I often had days where parts were great, then the rest sucked. So far in 2015, the good days have taken over and I am happier than I have been in a very long time. Everyone used to tell me that having nothing but good days was not good for you. I didn't understand why we needed to have bad days, just that I wanted to be happy all the time. But if you're happy all day every day, then you will know nothing else, and those happy days are just normal days. BUT if you have bad days, the good ones seem even better. 

The reason that I started to think about this is because I had a really terrible day today. The moment I walked into work, I was just really mad and grumpy, and I still am, for the most part, even though I've been home for 2 hours now, have eaten dinner, had a huge cookie, a large, alcoholic drink, and am watching The Amazing Spider-Man.

ANYWAY. Do you guys know how awesome crushes are? They make you feel giddy, and giggly, and bubbly, and just all around happy. And then when it seems like they like you back? Oh my hell it is just the best feeling in the world, like you're flying. That's how I feel at the moment, well maybe not right at this moment, I still have a scowl on my face. But he gives me butterflies, makes my heart soar, and most days, I can't stop smiling when I see him. I don't wish to say anymore about it, if you're one of the few I have talked to about it, then you'll know.

I went down to St. George with Ashley to visit Tammy this weekend, it was lots of fun! We saw The Imitation game, which was excellent. Historical movies aren't usually something I go for, but it was soooo good and I learned a lot. We also saw Into the Woods (to which my mother said "Oh no....we have to listen to another musical nonstop.") and it was excellent. Agony is definitely my favorite song (my dad also complained when he heard me playing the soundtrack at work today).

Last week, my mom and I got to meet Tom Felton, which was awesome. I'll end up posting a picture later, I'm really not in the mood to sync my phone at the moment. I have met two Harry Potter characters so far, which makes me incredibly happy. 

School has been alright. Poetry sucks, I really freaking hate it. I am taking an online class and I have yet to do a single thing for it, oops. We are reading Oliver Twist and I have learned that the way Charles Dickens writes is really not my thing. I am seriously considering dropping my English minor, it is not what I wanted it to be. I really want university to be a place where we can learn about what we want to, and stop taking all these general classes. I'm sorry, but details of history do not matter that much to me and no matter how hard I try, I will not remember them after this semester. I do not like reading classic literature, I do not like cultural anthropology. I want to take classes in things that I think are fun, like forensics, young adult literature, and children's literature. Maybe I'm too picky and those things won't actually help me in life, but I still think it would make my university experience a whole lot better. 

As for my 2015 "resolutions" I haven't stuck to much (shocker, right?). I have read 6 books so far this year, which is awesome. But that has taken a lot of time from school work. I even set a goal to read 23 books this year, which may not seem like many, but when you go to school full time and work 30 hours every week, it is quite a bit. I've stopped letting people tell me that I'm awkward, I feel more confident (although still super shy at times). I have been spending time with people that make me happy and I have also started to try to expand my group of friends. I have hung out with new people (we saw Mortdecai and that was lots of fun, plus I'm trying to get to know the people I am surrounded by daily) and I am trying to be more open to suggestions when it comes to doing things. I have completely avoided the one person that knows how to make my life miserable, which has changed my entire outlook on life. I have been eating better, I think. I haven't kept up with P90 completely, it is a ton of work and I just don't have all the time and energy to do it every day. But I have dropped a few pounds, first it was because I was sick, then I'm not sure what I've done, but I'm pretty pleased. I haven't done any more about appreciating people more, I need to work on that. Saying thanks, giving hugs, telling the people I love that I love them. I also haven't written more, which sucks. My sudden desire to write a book has faded, but I do have a good 8-10 ideas about what I could write. Maybe I can write book reviews on here? I don't know. I'd be afraid I'd spoil the endings to some.

One of my goals for 2015 is to buy a new car. I know my car still runs and it isn't a 100% necessary step, but I think it's time. I have been driving this one since I was 15 and I can afford to. I don't have student loans, I don't have rent to pay or really any other bills (besides like Netflix and Spotify). There are many people that do not support my decision, but I am done caring. They are not my parents, they have no say. I want a Mazda CX-5 by the way. A red one. Grand Touring. I have done so much research that I am an expert. I have made spreadsheets about which new cars are the best. I'm still all for the Mazda. 

May is going to be a big month for me. After finals, my mom and I take off to Florida for a week to spend time in the Wizarding World. It is going to be freaking fantastic. The day after we come home, we are going to see Ed Sheeran (hopefully. I will be doing my best to get tickets in a couple weeks when they go onsale). THEN about 10 days later, I will be headed back to the UK! Alice and I are going to go to Edinburgh, Dublin, and Cardiff. I plan to stay in Plymouth for a couple days and then go spend my last days in London with Lucy and the rest of the Francis family. I am so excited. I can't wait. 

Anyway. Spider-Man has ended and it is time for me to go to sleep. Or read Oliver Twist sparknotes. I'm going to bet on sleep. I still have not renamed this blog... I can't decide what it should be. WHO KNOWS.

I hope you are all doing well.

Love you all lots!

Jes